things on my mind...

My posts recently seem to all be lists.  Probably because I am a list kind of person.  I like to write it all down and then check it off as I go.  There is something so entirely satisfying about checking things off of a list that sometimes I make lists JUST so I can check something off.  But I digress...

I have a lot of things on my mind.

I love teaching.  I may the opportunity to do another long-term sub job in Kindergarten!  I would love love love that.  More details to come...

Field trip tomorrow... SO looking forward to that.

Open house tonight was very fun.  I can't wait until I get to do it on my own with all of my kiddos.  

Baseball.  Another game coming up on Wednesday... and possibly Monday too! :)  

Summer.  I just can't even wait.  I really hope I am able to hang out with a few certain people this summer and have it be amazing.

CAMP.  For some reason, I have been really super duper excited about working at camp this year.  Maybe it's because last year I had such a life changing experience, or maybe its because I am so looking forward to not being the new kid, or maybe its because a friend is coming along with! but I am so excited.  I JUST CAN'T WAIT. :)

This weekend I am headed down to Em's house for a grad party for her sister.  It will be good to get out of the house and hang with her for the weekend.

Apartments are so incredibly expensive!!!  Just thought I would throw that out there.  

I am absolutely loving all of the sunny weather.  I really need to get out in it more so I can work on my summer glow. :)

That is what is currently on my mind... along with much bigger things like death, life, politics, my faith, family, relationships, and other deep issues.  More to come later...

good good day...

A few things:

1. I had my first day off in a long long time.  I didn't go in to school today and instead spent the day hanging out with my Mom.  We haven't had a day with just the two of us in a LONG time, and it was just wonderful.

2. I have a summer job!  I am going to be working at a gym in town and I am actually pretty excited about it!

3. I really hope I also get the OTHER job that I am looking at... because secretly I have always wanted to work at a restaurant.

4. I just found a teaching job online, and I am debating whether or not to pursue it.  It's Kindergarten at a private school.  We shall see.

5. I installed an option to see if I actually get any visitors on this small blog of mine.  If you are reading this and I either know you or don't know you, please leave me a comment!  I would love to know if people actually read 'my random thoughts!'

6. I really like Mariner's baseball... we won today... and I can't even wait until my next game.  When I walk into that stadium... its like I am H-O-M-E.  I LOVE IT.  My-Oh-My. :)

7. Maybe I'll have two posts today? 

I think....

I think....

I'm getting worried about next year.

I think....

that I can't even wait until summer.

I think....

I am totally falling for someone who doesn't even know it.

I think....

I'm okay with that.

I think....

I'm tired of being lonely.

I think....

I'm ready for it to be my turn.

a. lot.

Well... it has been way way too long since I have posted on here.  In that time period I have done quite a bit.. maybe even too much to go back and journal about.  So instead, let me focus on the future.

Things that I am currently thinking about:

School.  I am finished subbing in a 2nd grade class... and I just finished in a 3/4th... so now I am back to randomly subbing.  As for a position next fall, we shall see.  I am trusting God with my future so I am not going to worry.  or at least try not to.  I'll do my best. :)

Summer.  It's almost here, and I CAN'T WAIT

Working.  I am hopefully going to be working this summer.  Not really because I want to but because I need to money.  Hopefully a flexible job... not too many hours... lots of time off.. :)  Again, praying about that and giving it up to God.

Baseball. I love baseball.  A lot.  And I've been to 12 games so far this season.  and spring training.  I love baseball.  I've been going with Sarah and Pete and family mostly this season.  Or just Pete. 

Camp Side-By-Side. I CAN'T WAIT.  If my job, that I am hopefully going to have, won't let me have this week off, I probably will quit. I am so excited for this year for many reasons.  #1, I love camp.  #2, Pete is COMING TO CAMP WITH ME! #3, Dan Wilson: enough said. #4 JJ Kissinger. #5 I love camp!!!

So, to recap: school, summer, working, baseball, camp. 

Maybe this is my year.  My year to have a wonderful segment in my life.  My year to fall in love?  We shall just have to see about that.  Lots of things on the horizon.  Lots to think about.  We shall just have to Wait and See. :)

...

tomorrow will be better... enough said about that.

As far as my 'being a better person inside and out' 30 day challenge...

Breakfast:

1 yogurt

1/2 muffin

2 strawberries

1 glass water

Lunch:

1 sandwich

1 small bag chips

1 1/8 of 1 brownie

1 soda

1 bottle water

Dinner:

Spaghetti noodles

1/2 cup sauce

2 cups broccoli

1/2 cup ice cream

Worked out at gym...

Overall, I will give myself a 8/10 today.

tomorrow...

Tomorrow...

I start my new job

I become an employed citizen

I start my own personal 30-day challenge to be a better person, inside and out

I will have the chance to influence 25 young children for 8 hours a day

I am going to have a great day.

Back... and cold.

I'm back to reality.  Arizona was AMAZING. 

Highlights

*Getting to spend quality time with my BFFL Emily

*The warm hot sunshine

*Meeting Nathan, Dave, and the other guy

*Meeting the Mariners (yes, the baseball guys)

*Going to Spring Training

*Getting 'this kind' of balls, not 'this kind' :)

*Sun

*Amazing Raspberry explosion cake

*Cactus everywhere

*Road-tripping and almost dying in the car

*The Sunshine

*1st class plane rides

It was a dream come true to go to Mariners Spring Training with Emily.  We had a BLAST.  Memories made that will last a life time.  

And then the harsh reality of coming home hit.

*Cold

*Stress

*Anxiety

*Tears

*Loneliness

Yep, I'm back. 

So here's the new plan.  Move to AZ with Emily and teach.  In the sun.  

However, I think for now I should probably just stick with my job that starts on Monday.  Slightly stressed.  Oh, and I'm looking for a new job.  Yep.  Another one.  We'll see how that goes.

Now if I can just focus on Arizona and sun and baseball.  I'm ready to go back.

Really really ready.

Things that I am trying to make myself look forward to. 

*Camp Side-By-Side in August

*Baseball seaons starting which means games at my other home (AKA Safeco Field)

*Summer weather

*My kids

*A boyfriend? ... just thought I would throw it in for good measure

Life is tough.  Church tomorrow.  Some good worship time will be... good.  Maybe center me back.  I'll let you know how that plan goes.

Oh life. 

Life goes on.