my new life.

I haven't posted recently because my life has been turned upside down with changes. Some good, some bad. Some positive, some not so positive. Some exciting, some not so exciting.

When I get a little big more free time, I will be able to update. Until then...

he will always provide.

I always worry. He always provides.

For example:

• 5 open jobs. I just applied. For all 5. I was convinced that there would not be any.

• A second part time summer job. I was worried about finding one that fit the hours I needed. Turns out that is works Perfectly with a capital P.

• An apartment. That I can afford. They offered ~OFFERED~ to drop the rent.

He always provides. He is Good. He hears me. He knows my heart. God is Good.

verses in my head.

Phillipians 4:6

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.

Psalm 46:10

Be still and know that I am God.

wednesday words.

Rough day in the classroom today.  But great support from my friends. :)

Ran for 45 minutes today.  The most I have ever ran in my life... combined. :)  Should be sore tomorrow, but that is just fine with me. 

Saw the apartment today... and it is just what I want.  We shall see.  Be still and know that I am God.  That verse keeps running over and over in my head. I am trying to be patient and see God working in my life.  I"ll get back to you on how that is going.

That's all for tonight.  I am off to watch one of my guilty pleasures... the Bachelorette.  I just love that show.  I'm really liking Jake and Ed and Kipton.  I think that Dave and Wes should have been gone a long time ago.  Maybe they just keep them around for the drama.  

More tomorrow... should be a great day!

Oh, and I am LOVING the warm sunny weather here in WA.  Have to enjoy it while we have it... so I sat out in the hammock for an hour today! :)

two days in a row!

I am feeling motivated to write on here for many reasons:

1. A lot is going on in my life right now and this is a good way to process it.

2. I set a goal.  And most of the time, that works for me.  I like to accomplish things.

3. I have a bunch of extra time right now. 

So today.  

I worked at the gym in the morning.  It's kind of weird having 2 jobs right now.  But, at the gym, I had my first day where I was working independently.  I signed up 2 new members!  Oh, and at one point, I was alone in a gym with 5 strong men working out.  It's a pretty okay job. :)

Then, I met up with my friend J, (one of my friends who is making some poor decisions right now but I still love.  She is also a fairly new-er-ish friend.  Is that even a word?) and we worked out at the other gym.  But, before she came, I worked out all by myself.  So, that is 3 workouts today.  2 things: Sore, and Progress!

After that I ran over to Thomas's baseball game... and it was a bit exciting!  There was a girl pitching... and I think her strategy was to just throw the ball at the player.  As in, try and HIT our team.  She hit my Thomas.  Then, she hit Jason.  The next time he got up, her first pitch almost hit him in the head again but he was quick enough to drop to the ground.  Her second pitch nailed him right in the back.  Ouch.  She was kicked out of the game.  He was taken off in tears... but returned to play.  

I then quickly headed over to my brother's band concert.  Painful.  Except for one kid who SANG and  it was gorgeous.  

I now have a new thing to pray about: I was offered an apartment today.  And I want to take it REALLY BADLY.  But currently, money is a bit of an issue.  But it is a really good price, and everything is included.  I am going to go and see it this week.  Will you pray with me about that?  I know that God will provide if it is his Will; but sometimes I have a hard time just being patient.  I like to make things happen.  "Be still and know that I am God" I am working on following that verse VERY CAREFULLY. 

On a stranger note, "Little April Rose" turned out to be a fake.  I feel kind of... cheated.  I have been praying for this baby and her family... and now it was all a big hoax.  Part of the blogging world I guess.  Its so strange to me to think that people actually read this blog as well. :)

That is about it for today.  Back in the classroom tomorrow...4th grade! So excited!

monday post... on monday!

It's Monday and I am posting!

Pretty uneventful day.  Worked at the gym today which was pretty fun.  Met "Will" the new personal trainer.  Let me tell you... I would pay the 65 and hour just to watch him work out.       Enough said.  

Ran some errands... thought about a certain person... listened to loud music... prayed while driving... cried a bit while driving (why does that ALWAYS happen?!?!?!)

Did a bit of shopping... helped the brother with a school project... drove back to my place... and ready to go to bed so I can face the day tomorrow!

Things I am currently praying about:

Little April Rose

My family

My future

A certain someone

My students (Jorden and Gabe in particular)

Donna and Cindy

Sarah

McMamma and Stellan

Oh, one more thing.

I have been having a rough time recently feeling isolated.  And maybe that is because I have been struggling in the area of friendship.  I"m going to get kinda honest here and blunt.  Watch out.  

Recently, I have been watching my friends make some pretty big decisions in their lives... and I disagree with their choices.

For example: sleeping with your 'I don't really know what we are' friend/boyfriend/boytoy; moving in with your boyfriend; living with your fiancee...

I don't know exactly where I am going with this... but maybe just that I feel like I need some new friends with good solid morals!  That being said, I have some great friends.  Wonderful friends.  Amazing friends.  Solid Christian, grounded friends that I love dearly. 

But again, that being said: I seem to have issues with friendship.  I"ll just say it.  Maybe it is me.  And maybe that is why I am cautious about saying anything about these bad moral decisions my friends are making.  I don't want to end up all alone.  I don't want to end up without any friends.  My friends know my take on things... they know my opinion and stance.  But I don't push it on them every chance I get.  

However, I can't really seem to hold onto 'good' friends for too long.  High school friends: I have 2.  One lives in Cali, and one in Hawaii.  College: I started out with about 10 close friends.  Of those 10, I see one on a regular basis.  4 of them I no longer talk to.  One I am in the process of starting to maybe kind of rekindle things with.  We shall see.  There is still a lot of pain and hurt there.  Forgiveness has been given but trust is a whole other ball game.  

So currently, I only have a few friends that I see on a regular basis.  I have 1 really good amazing friend who makes horrible life decisions, 1 really close solid, grounded, amazing friend who I can talk about everything from Baseball to God, evil, cracker jacks, and Hannah Montana with, and the other person I have been spending quite a bit of time with... has no idea that I sometimes find it difficult to breath and get my heart to beat at a normal speed around him.  But can I tell him that? No.  

Friendship.  Its tough.  And it gets me thinking... am I a good friend?  Is it me that pushes people away?  If I can't keep friends... am I ever going to be able to keep a man in my life?  

Oh man... writing sometimes just make my head spin around so fast and I have all these thoughts that just RUSH to my finger tips.  

If you are still reading this, I commend you.   

I think that is all for right now.  Good thing I have Tuesday to write as well. 

weekly review?

Since I have been so bad about posting each day on here... here is my weekly review!

Monday:

2nd grade!  The kids were great, and we had a wonderful wonderful time.  Then I went to Thomas's baseball game... which I always love doing.  They are just so fun to watch... and I love baseball!

Tuesday:

Working at the gym in the morning... signed up a person all on my own (with lots of help from Lisa!).  Got my haircut.. oh what an exciting life I have.  Jackie's bridal shower... which was just great.  Except, it made me have that nagging feeling again like I am 'slowing down' and I need to 'speed up'.  I have to keep reminding myself to be happy and content right where I am.  "Be still, and know that I am God."  Still working on that.

Wednesday:

4th Grade!  Love those kids... felt kind of bad because at times I overstepped the student teacher... but we had a wonderful time.  Then I RUSHED out of school so that I could race to the ferry and run aboard RIGHT before they closed the gate.  Plus it was 90 out... oh my.  But, it lead to 2 of my favorite things to do: baseball and hanging out with a good friend!  All in all, a wonderful evening... great conversation... and the M's won! 

Thursday: 

Gym!  It was fun... got to work out and get paid... what a deal! :)

Friday:

4th grade again.  We had just a great time.  Except... talent show.  One word: PAINFUL.  Think: 2nd graders singing off-key love songs... with no background music.  Oh, and the SAME song THREE times.  Again: PAINFUL

Saturday: Housesitting an adorable puppy... and a big old dog whom I loved... Thomas's baseball game again (they won which means they move on in the playoffs!)... that's about it

Sunday: Church.  Sidenote: I love going to church.  It gets me all... centered... to face the week.  Costco (I am really that predictable) Housesitting... home.  Transformers on the big screen... pretty good!

And now.  I am sitting here.  All alone.  Great.  I'm excited that school is getting out so that I can hang out with all of my friends that are still in school.  I'm excited for summer and warm weather.  I'm excited for what looks like it could be an interesting summer in my life.  I'm excited for new things.  

But right now... I kinda wish I had someone to be excited about it all with!  

But, enough about that for now... my goal this week is to post EVERY DAY.  Oh, and to loose 5 pounds.  In one week.  Yep... :)

busy...but not

It seems like my life has been SO busy recently... but then I think about it and it actually hasn't.  I'm off to run a few more errands... and hopefully when I get some down time I can post exactly what my life has been like for the past week.

Also, please pray for "April Rose"... she was born this morning...alive! :) http://littleoneapril.blogspot.com/

Praise the Lord!