wow...

Yesterday was a BIG day.

I have THREE interviews.

Yes, THREE.

4th grade.

5th grade.

2nd grade.

Let me just tell you that is a miracle in and of itself.

Those are pretty much the only three openings within 4 hours of here.

And I interviewed for all THREE.

And I was offered...

{ALL THREE}

So with GREAT joy, I am officially,

teaching

5th

grade

for the 2010-2011 school year.

And I couldn't be more excited.

Thank you to all of you who prayed for me, encouraged me, supported me, and believed in me.

Now ready...set...go!

insecurity...

Sometimes, these feelings of insecurity hit me like a ton of bricks.

Insecurity in who I am.

Insecurity in my relationships.

Insecurity in my job.

Insecurity in my faith.

And I don't know what to do about them.

I get anxious, nervous, and emotional.

And I feel lost. Lonely. Afraid. Scared.

Right now, is one of those moments.

I feel insecure.

And I hate that.

oh boy...

Choices. Choices to be made. So many choices.

I'm a bad chooser.

I am indecisive.

I like to know the WHOLE picture before I make a choice.

And unfortunently, right now, I don't have the whole picture.

So, I am trying to put my trust in Him. Because he is the ONLY one who has the whole picture.

Why is my mind starting to sing, "He's got the whole world in His hands?" :)

Trying to be patient. And remembering he has the whole picture all. figured. out.

patience...

I am now fully understanding why patience is a {virtue}.

I am not very good at this waiting game.

After 3 great interview in the past 2 weeks, I have gotten the same speech from all of them.

We love you, you sound great, you are a great interviewer, we would love to have you on our staff, you can't improve on anything.... but we are going with someone who has more experience.

Um, is it just me, or does that not sound quite right?

HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO GET MORE EXPERIENCE IF NO ONE WILL HIRE ME.

There, I got it out. I feel much better.

Today, I have another interview. For a position that I will gladly take. It's a great position. But I'm feeling torn about it. So, I guess I will just have to wait and see.

As for now, I am studying every bible verse that talks about patience.

And trying to understand that it is a virtue. And that I need to learn some more of it.

weekend plans...

Busy weekend ahead of us.

But, the weather is beautiful, the food will be great, and of course, the company is amazing.

Friday: As soon as R gets home we are headed over to the BIG meeting between my boyfriend and the neighborhood. I know they will love him and he will love them. But, its being disguised as a {Margarita Night}.

Saturday: We will be driving up early Saturday morning to Bellingham to R's sister's house to celebrate the birthday of his niece. Oh, and EVERYONE is coming up. Parents, both sisters, all the nieces and nephews. Then, spending the night at the other sister's house. Should be crazy fun.

Sunday: Hopefully coming home mid morning. Maybe an afternoon nap. Or an afternoon walk. Or both. Church in the evening. and off to be early.

Should be a great weekend! What are you doing?

another transition...

Well, summer school is over.

I am unemployed again.

Another life transition.

Still waiting to hear about the job... and trying not to be anzious. I'm actually not that nervous which is amazing. I think I just have a little bit more peace about all of it working out.

But I am feeling that 'transition time' again. That feeling of unknow.

For the past month, I have had a schedule and a plan every day.

This morning, I am sitting on my couch watching TLC 'Say Yes to the Dress'. I swear this show is addictive. Seriously.

But, I am feeling more peace than before.

And I'm hoping that sticks with me.

So for now...back to 'Say Yes to the Dress'.

prayers appreciated...

I have an interview today.

For a great job, that I would love.

But I just get so nervous!

So, in praying specifically, pray for lessened nerves, pray for the right words to come out of my mouth, for me to know when to just SHUT UP, and for the interview team to see my true love and passion for kids and teaching.

That is my prayer.

If you happen to want to send an extra one up about 1:40, that would be great! :)

adventures...

I love little adventures with my man.

Tonight, we just went looking at houses. Not to buy, but just the fun of looking at what we like, and how ridiculous the prices are.

But sometimes, we find ones that we both really like.

And feeling like someday we could have a house that we call home, is amazing.

Just one of the many little adventures I love with my man.