I think....

I think....

I'm getting worried about next year.

I think....

that I can't even wait until summer.

I think....

I am totally falling for someone who doesn't even know it.

I think....

I'm okay with that.

I think....

I'm tired of being lonely.

I think....

I'm ready for it to be my turn.

a. lot.

Well... it has been way way too long since I have posted on here.  In that time period I have done quite a bit.. maybe even too much to go back and journal about.  So instead, let me focus on the future.

Things that I am currently thinking about:

School.  I am finished subbing in a 2nd grade class... and I just finished in a 3/4th... so now I am back to randomly subbing.  As for a position next fall, we shall see.  I am trusting God with my future so I am not going to worry.  or at least try not to.  I'll do my best. :)

Summer.  It's almost here, and I CAN'T WAIT

Working.  I am hopefully going to be working this summer.  Not really because I want to but because I need to money.  Hopefully a flexible job... not too many hours... lots of time off.. :)  Again, praying about that and giving it up to God.

Baseball. I love baseball.  A lot.  And I've been to 12 games so far this season.  and spring training.  I love baseball.  I've been going with Sarah and Pete and family mostly this season.  Or just Pete. 

Camp Side-By-Side. I CAN'T WAIT.  If my job, that I am hopefully going to have, won't let me have this week off, I probably will quit. I am so excited for this year for many reasons.  #1, I love camp.  #2, Pete is COMING TO CAMP WITH ME! #3, Dan Wilson: enough said. #4 JJ Kissinger. #5 I love camp!!!

So, to recap: school, summer, working, baseball, camp. 

Maybe this is my year.  My year to have a wonderful segment in my life.  My year to fall in love?  We shall just have to see about that.  Lots of things on the horizon.  Lots to think about.  We shall just have to Wait and See. :)

...

tomorrow will be better... enough said about that.

As far as my 'being a better person inside and out' 30 day challenge...

Breakfast:

1 yogurt

1/2 muffin

2 strawberries

1 glass water

Lunch:

1 sandwich

1 small bag chips

1 1/8 of 1 brownie

1 soda

1 bottle water

Dinner:

Spaghetti noodles

1/2 cup sauce

2 cups broccoli

1/2 cup ice cream

Worked out at gym...

Overall, I will give myself a 8/10 today.

tomorrow...

Tomorrow...

I start my new job

I become an employed citizen

I start my own personal 30-day challenge to be a better person, inside and out

I will have the chance to influence 25 young children for 8 hours a day

I am going to have a great day.

Back... and cold.

I'm back to reality.  Arizona was AMAZING. 

Highlights

*Getting to spend quality time with my BFFL Emily

*The warm hot sunshine

*Meeting Nathan, Dave, and the other guy

*Meeting the Mariners (yes, the baseball guys)

*Going to Spring Training

*Getting 'this kind' of balls, not 'this kind' :)

*Sun

*Amazing Raspberry explosion cake

*Cactus everywhere

*Road-tripping and almost dying in the car

*The Sunshine

*1st class plane rides

It was a dream come true to go to Mariners Spring Training with Emily.  We had a BLAST.  Memories made that will last a life time.  

And then the harsh reality of coming home hit.

*Cold

*Stress

*Anxiety

*Tears

*Loneliness

Yep, I'm back. 

So here's the new plan.  Move to AZ with Emily and teach.  In the sun.  

However, I think for now I should probably just stick with my job that starts on Monday.  Slightly stressed.  Oh, and I'm looking for a new job.  Yep.  Another one.  We'll see how that goes.

Now if I can just focus on Arizona and sun and baseball.  I'm ready to go back.

Really really ready.

Things that I am trying to make myself look forward to. 

*Camp Side-By-Side in August

*Baseball seaons starting which means games at my other home (AKA Safeco Field)

*Summer weather

*My kids

*A boyfriend? ... just thought I would throw it in for good measure

Life is tough.  Church tomorrow.  Some good worship time will be... good.  Maybe center me back.  I'll let you know how that plan goes.

Oh life. 

Life goes on.

a really good reason NOT to post...

This time tomorrow I will be in ARIZONA.  I'll be gone for a few days... but I am sure that I will post when I get back!

fun sub day

3 3 letter words.  A fun sub day.  

1/2 day tomorrow.

Lunch date.

AZ.

Things I am looking forward to after this fun sub day.