so hard.

I'm having a really hard time with the fact I am moving out tomorrow from my amazing apartment, and the most wonderful family I could ever have lived with.  This has been an amazing blessing, and my heart is breaking that I won't be able to see my kids everyday.  I guess I just don't know what I am going to do... 

long day...

Today seemed quite long.  I got to hang out with the children... all day.  It was good, but I was so incredibly sore and tired today!!!  I went and played soccer with Anne Marie this week, which was awesome, and I didn't get hurt, but I am so so sore!  I feel like I used some muscles in my body that I have never ever used.  I also have two blisters on my toes... quite painful.  

I got to hang out with a friend this evening down at the Village, it was great.  It's always nice to just sit and chat.  

Then I browsed that isles of Barnes and Nobles, attempting to look scholarly... didn't work out so well.  

Got home, and now I am just sitting in bed watching my most favorite Food Network show: Unwrapped.   My new job opportunities: Pancake Expert or Small Kitchen Consultant.  Off to bed... don't have to work till 4 tomorrow... which means sleeping in to a ridiculously late hour.  Oh the joys of summer. :)

just a few of my favorite quotes.

"All truths are easy to understand once they are discovered; the point is to discover them." -- Galileo Galilei

"I have only one superstition. I touch all the bases when I hit a home run." -- Babe Ruth

"Jesus' healings are not supernatural miracles in a natural world. They are the only truly 'natural' things in a world that is unnatural, demonized and wounded." -- Jurgen Moltmann

Prayer, does not work like a vending machine: insert request, receive answer. Miraces are just that, miracles, not "ordinaries" common to daily experience. -- Yancey

"In poverty and other misfortunes of life, true friends are a sure refuge. The young they keep out of mischief; to the old they are a comfort and aid in their weakness, and those in the prime of life they incite to noble deeds." -Aristotle

"Okay, here it is, your choice... it's simple, her or me, and I'm sure she is really great. But Derek, I love you, in a really, really big pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window, unfortunate way that makes me hate you, love you. So pick me, choose me, love me." ~Meredith

After careful consideration and many sleepless nights, here’s what I've decided. There's no such thing as a grown-up. We move out, we move away from our families. But the basic insecurities, the fears and all the old wounds just grow up with us. Just when you think life has forced you to truly become an adult, your mother says something like that. We get bigger, taller, older. But, for the most part, we're still a bunch of kids, running around the playground, trying desperately to fit in.~ Meredith

Romans 12:9-21: Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse. Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn. Live in harmony with one another. Do not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position. Do not be conceited.
Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everybody. If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone. Do not take revenge, my friends, but leave room for God's wrath, for it is written: "It is mine to avenge; I will repay,"says the Lord. On the contrary: "If your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink. In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head." Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.

“To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket- safe, dark, motionless, airless--it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable.”~ C.S. Lewis

felix.

By the way, just found out that they think Felix's ankle is just a sprain, and they expect him to pitch on his next scheduled appearance in 5 days.... good news for everyone :)

The Seattle Mariners.

I am a HUGE Mariner's fan.  Enough said.  I know a lot about them... follow their every move... go to the games... own enough clothing to hold stock in them... you get the picture.  

Today was an amazing game.  Sadly enough, it didn't end too well, but the beginning was good.  Felix Hernandez.  AKA, the King of the Mariners.  He is 22, started when he was 18, and was out pitcher today.  Well, because the Mariners aren't doing so hot these days, they figured, "Why not let our pitcher hit?  We're already doing terrible, it can't do any harm.. right?"  So, Felix gets up... 2 outs in the inning... bases loaded... and hits a grand slam.  Oh yeah.  A grand slam.  

Unfortunately, he got hurt in the 5th, and didn't get the 5-1 win over the Braves, but in my book, he earned that win.  I mean come on, the guy pitched a 2 hitter, and drove in 4 of the 5 runs.... he won that game.  Now we have to wait and see how bad the ankle injury is.. 

Oh, and my all time favorite baseball player Willie Bloomquist played today, and was one of those men on base when Felix got up.  Good luck charm?    

busy busy.

Today was a very busy day.  I was at home this morning, and had a meeting with my mentor teacher for this fall.  It's weird to think that I am going to be in a classroom with her this fall, having her watch me and criticize my teaching.  I have known her for 13 years... I guess this will be a good learning experience about how to take criticism.  

Then I came back to Seattle... side note: I think there was something wrong with the ferry today.  When I woke up 10 minutes before we were supposed to dock, I was facing the West Seattle Bridge.  We then proceeded to move slowly to the left... and back to the right... and back to the left... it was by far the weirdest ferry ride I have ever been on.  

There was tons of traffic coming back, but I made it back 2 minutes after 2.  Got to watch the kids... my last Monday with them.  I got to do two of my favorite things with the kids today.  1) When David woke up EXACTLY an hour after David put him down, I went up, and he seemed really tired still.  So I gave him the rest of the bottle, and he fell back asleep which meant I got to snuggle with him on the bed, and take a little rest.  Such a good feeling to look into his eyes as he is falling asleep... total trust.  2) I got to snuggle with Betsy when she woke up... or we woke her up. :) She like to cuddle in and then throw her arms around me.  Great.

On a much more random note: I have discovered that I wasted my money on college.  There is some background to this: I like watching TV.  Maybe because I never had one before, but I love to watch TV, especially late late at night.  On the Food Channel (my favorite.. it's very relaxing.. you should watch it sometime), there is a show called "Unwrapped".  They explain how things are made, and their history.  The best part of it is though, is reading people's title.  Why didn't I ever think about being a 'Margarine Historian' or a 'Black Eyed Pea Advisor'.  I mean, honestly, that would be so fun!  Why didn't I think about that? OH, they just profiled a 'Deep Fried Pickle Expert'.  Yes, that is what I think I should do with my life.  

Tomorrow I am going to look at a VBS... and then work... and then.... I don't know what.     

home with the fam.

Today was wonderful, I got to spend the whole day with my family. Scones for breakfast... in my sweats till noon... and then a wonderful afternoon hanging out in town with Kevin. He is such a great kid... doesn't mind waiting for me in the dressing room... makes me laugh 'like nothin' before' and sings crazy loud with me to the radio.

VBS planning tonight... kind of stressful... but hopefully tomorrow will be better.