patience...

I am now fully understanding why patience is a {virtue}.

I am not very good at this waiting game.

After 3 great interview in the past 2 weeks, I have gotten the same speech from all of them.

We love you, you sound great, you are a great interviewer, we would love to have you on our staff, you can't improve on anything.... but we are going with someone who has more experience.

Um, is it just me, or does that not sound quite right?

HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO GET MORE EXPERIENCE IF NO ONE WILL HIRE ME.

There, I got it out. I feel much better.

Today, I have another interview. For a position that I will gladly take. It's a great position. But I'm feeling torn about it. So, I guess I will just have to wait and see.

As for now, I am studying every bible verse that talks about patience.

And trying to understand that it is a virtue. And that I need to learn some more of it.

weekend plans...

Busy weekend ahead of us.

But, the weather is beautiful, the food will be great, and of course, the company is amazing.

Friday: As soon as R gets home we are headed over to the BIG meeting between my boyfriend and the neighborhood. I know they will love him and he will love them. But, its being disguised as a {Margarita Night}.

Saturday: We will be driving up early Saturday morning to Bellingham to R's sister's house to celebrate the birthday of his niece. Oh, and EVERYONE is coming up. Parents, both sisters, all the nieces and nephews. Then, spending the night at the other sister's house. Should be crazy fun.

Sunday: Hopefully coming home mid morning. Maybe an afternoon nap. Or an afternoon walk. Or both. Church in the evening. and off to be early.

Should be a great weekend! What are you doing?

another transition...

Well, summer school is over.

I am unemployed again.

Another life transition.

Still waiting to hear about the job... and trying not to be anzious. I'm actually not that nervous which is amazing. I think I just have a little bit more peace about all of it working out.

But I am feeling that 'transition time' again. That feeling of unknow.

For the past month, I have had a schedule and a plan every day.

This morning, I am sitting on my couch watching TLC 'Say Yes to the Dress'. I swear this show is addictive. Seriously.

But, I am feeling more peace than before.

And I'm hoping that sticks with me.

So for now...back to 'Say Yes to the Dress'.

prayers appreciated...

I have an interview today.

For a great job, that I would love.

But I just get so nervous!

So, in praying specifically, pray for lessened nerves, pray for the right words to come out of my mouth, for me to know when to just SHUT UP, and for the interview team to see my true love and passion for kids and teaching.

That is my prayer.

If you happen to want to send an extra one up about 1:40, that would be great! :)

adventures...

I love little adventures with my man.

Tonight, we just went looking at houses. Not to buy, but just the fun of looking at what we like, and how ridiculous the prices are.

But sometimes, we find ones that we both really like.

And feeling like someday we could have a house that we call home, is amazing.

Just one of the many little adventures I love with my man.

missing my kids...

Today I am really missing my students. The familiarity of me knowing them, and them knowing me.

Having my classroom where somedays we just sat and colored, or talked, and everybody hugged each other. Where my kids all worked hard. Where I knew their emotions, their feelings, their stories.

Letting go of them was one of the toughest things to do. And while it was obviously necessary...It was still hard.

I gave my students this poem on the last day and barely made it through reading it outloud to them. Tears flowed, and we cried together. And all of those emotions and feelings are quickly flooding back right now.

To my students:

In 2009 at the beginning of September

You came into my class, how well I remember.
Some of you were smiling and giggling a lot

Some were very quiet and a few tears I could spot

You came here to learn, to be taught how to read

You were then very much like a tiny new seed
You were all in my garden just waiting to grow

So this gardener got busy with her rake and her hoe

I fed you the water and let in the sun

You took in the soil, but we had only begun
Each day as I worked in this garden of mine

I saw you all growing so strong and so fine

Then finally one day I took a good look

And saw each of my flowers reading a book
It was obvious then that you had worked too

Soaking up all the food I had given to you

But although you have blossomed, you still need to grow

So I'll pass you on now to another gardener I know
They too have a rake and hoe they can use

And plenty of food from which you can choose

I hope you will keep your roots open wide

Take in all their food and keep it inside

Yes, a gardener can work all night and all day

But the flower must be willing to take in each ray

So work very hard in your garden each year

Do the best you can and you'll have nothing to fear
Grow strong and tall, reach up for the sun

Stay as nice as you are and have lots of fun.

date night...

I love date nights. There is something about actually planning a {date} and then doing it that makes it special.

Not just deciding on dinner and making it, or grabbing some food on the way home, but planning some sort of activity and dinner. I love it.

Tonight, we are going to do some shopping. Not just any type of shopping. Some BIG shopping. Some very important shopping. Just to check things out. And get some ideas. And I'm pretty excited.

Then we are planning on going out to dinner and just relaxing back at home. Ryan's home that is. Not my home. Yet. :)